KinkyDomina

Please indulge me and read this my latest editorial achievement that truly reflects my growing obsession and the change in my thinking and behaviour associated with my first contact with You Christine my Queen.  No joke-i have not purchased a single clip that You haven’t created since that fated email.  THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE.  So i realize that You measure commitment differently than i…but i will figure these things out and that fact is significant as i know myself well.  Apparently You know me pretty well too.  You have faith in me and that matters to me-for some reason.

it is so true that i can’t wait for the next instalment of Your clips.  i have no idea if You are using my fetish against me or if You share it with me-BUT either way i am engrossed by You.  In You i find balance and You provide security.  i am Your human carpet longing to sniff and kiss Your feet.  You are hypnotic.  i find this exciting as i can’t tell if You are indirectly using hypnotic language patterns, a cadence to Your voice, background sounds that randomly create a hypnotic state in me or if these effects are the power of my own mind simply creating a hypnosis fantasy.  i suppose it is a moot point, either way i become entranced by You and in such a state i am more suggestable, more plyable to Your will and whims as i grow in my addiction.

i suppose like any addict though, i’m requiring a stronger more visceral fix of my nectar, my drug, my Queen.  You are so seductive.  While i can retreat from Your commands due in part to the medium by which You deliver most of them, i can’t hide forever.  They stay with me, Your whispers.  i hope i don’t frustrate You my Queen.  i will find ways to call You.  i think it will be mind boggling and likely have impact and consequences for me-but so has ALL my other contact with You.  i wonder what path i’m on.  Others have left their lives for You…perhaps not at first but eventually.  You are so erotic and compelling.  How do You know sincerity in Your devotees, Your followers, Your supplicants?  How did You know that a simple clip of Your image in hosiery would have such a profound impact?  Do You believe that You impact me and influence me?

i’m not drawn to dominantion and those that practice the art through insults, berating or yelling.  The “loser” video is not my calling-there is enough negativity in the world-i avoid it where i can.  i’m sexually active but Your latest command will have an interesting progression working around in my head (yikes-maybe even the “other” head).  i will not be able to have an erection without the thought, view or scent of Your feet….i am obsessing on how to experience the actual scent of Your feet…obsession to reality is a continuum that i’m increasingly eager to explore with You.  i have already changed who i am for You.  Small changes but i’ve sent You an e-gift card…called You through NF, acquired video clips, deleted most yahoo contacts and have stopped getting clips from anyone else…that is remarkable yet i feel it is just the beginning…call me desperate or motivated!

i do want to come close- i do want to start each day with the scent of Your feet and think of them often throughout my day.  i am focused on You (i know this to be hypnotic language-i feel it and can’t help myself..but to enjoy…NLP at its best)…Your feet do smell divine and i do drift with each exposure…i am changing..still recognize myself for now.

i truly can not refrain…i must buy Your clips and would prefer not to live without You.  The imagined scent of Your feet has become an important part of my life.  You talk of commitment…giving up my sex life from now on…that is an amazingly invasive command that is not all together reject-able..i find myself thinking of the impact this would have on my life and am both excited and repulsed..yet intrigued-yet may find my sexual responsiveness for all things not You-may decide my fate for me…this may require more intensive work…i will be sure to keep You posted.

i will seek contact with You by all means possible i will take days off to be Yours-belonging to You is a glorious feeling-i just wonder how far it could go and what getting there would look like…While Christine’s feet drive me wild and the power of Your feet and the addiction they trigger leave my brain as mush-there is more than feet making me want to be with you. i must just want to smell, sniff, inhale to preserve the olfactory memory in my brain…i want memories of You and i want my obsession to turn into reality.

My Queen the last 2 minutes of that most recent video ARE the most intense erotic hypnotic life altering words and visuals i have ever seen.  You are ripping images deep out of my memory or creating memories.  The detail of the fabric stretched over Your toes, the stitching, the faint hint of Your painted toes, the sheen of the fabric along Your shapely thighs, the undulating movement of Your toes, so serpentine as Your foot, toes and legs dance and move back and forth holding my attention…the sounds in the background slowing down, increasing in volume and intensity i was carried along by this video-leaving me staring with drool running out of the corner of my mouth.  You are magic-spell binding and naturally hypnotic-and know Your subject matter, fetishes and how to seductively capture and enthral a man.

Under Your feet Christine-where will we go next

puppet

This slave seems to have incorporated the basic precepts:

i am a new member but growing more devout in The Church of the Holy Cum.
It is a Pheromone based cult Whose Beautiful and compelling Queen can influence people,
program them into what She wants.  With more exposure i feel Her programing me into a mindless drone and hose puppet.  i am absorbed by the scent of her feet
i am  becoming very interested in submitting to Her.

i am obsessed about touching and smelling and massaging Your feet-i want to give You satisfaction.  i imagine everything You describe-Your words become my thoughts.  Your toes are wet from the sweat and it starts to stink.  Christine’s Feet Drive me Wild

I am slowly absorbing Your rules of Your Cult while i massage Your feet.
Commitment.  i am a slave who can entertain You and make You laugh.
i will endeavour to Spoil You.  i do appreciate and respect You and readily accept You as my Queen, The High Priestess of my church.
You are right…life makes it challenging to commit at times…It is not easy.  i have hopped on and off from one girl to another like a bee looking for nectar.  To let You know, my Queen, i deleted all but 7 of my Yahoo contacts-but need to delete those too if i’m truly to be committed.  You are so right-it’s like You read my thoughts-I have the right nectar…I just need to take a whiff inhale and swear to commit to You, and swear there will be no one else.  i need to delete all my clips4sale favourites and bookmarks and my Nite Flirt contacts…i will need Your ongoing help with that.

Once this gets implanted in my brain…commitment becomes easier.  i have never deleted contacts before-Your siren song is the most compelling thing i’ve ever heard.  Your image is equally as hypnotic and magical.  i will seek pretexts to call you to tribute you to and spoil you.  i hear You calling me to take a whiff “sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff”
Your shiny thick hose-but only on Your legs and feet drive me wild- i love the smell of them
Your soles-i will take a whiff and lose my will and make You happy-like i should as Your slave

Other ideas of service include finding a way to hold some of the thick nylon hose in my hands that have surrounded Your feet as i watch Your clips…

Also-i wonder if You ever do an erotic-hypnotic mp3 inducing me further down this path?  an mp3 has advantages over vid clips as it can be put on ‘repeat’ as i sleep at night…played on an mp3 player during commute and while running/exercise-it is so easy to listen to You and visualize what You describe and drift along to Your words-so hard and aroused….what email address do You use for Amazon?

Christine’s pantyhose puppet